Random Thoughts

It’s Been a Trying Week

Last week has been one of the toughest I’ve had to endure. My father-in-law had developed lung cancer, been through a round of chemotherapy, and was getting ready to start a new round after tests. Then he started having problems breathing.

He collapsed Tuesday morning and was taken to the hospital, put on a respirator, and made comfortable. When we got to the hospital, the Oncologist told us he wouldn’t make it out of the hospital and that it was only a matter of time.

Friday at 4p.m., my father-in-law was taken off of the respirator. He passed away at 11:02 on Friday, December 11. My husband was with him when he passed. Thankfully he’s no longer suffering and we know he’s in a better place. We also know we’ll see him again.

I’ve never had to deal with planning a funeral and everything it entails. I’ve been on the phone almost non-stop calling friends and family. I’ve also been babysitting. My husband, his mom, and his sister have been taking care of everything else.

All of this makes me think about my own parents. They’re not getting any younger and aren’t in the best of health. They’ve been trying to prepare me for their eventual deaths, but I really don’t want to talk or think about it. Now, it seems, that’s all I’m thinking about.

They live almost 6 hours away from me, and I’m not sure I’ll be able to be there when they pass. I sure hope and pray that I can be there, but the chances are I may not. So, I need to make sure I let them know how much I love them NOW. I can’t let things that need to be said left unsaid.

The funeral is tomorrow, which is also my birthday. I know the day is going to be hard for my sweet husband. Please pray for us.